How deeply I need the talk of dynamic Pravrajika Gitaprana offered in this week's resources; especially her closing question and answer segment which addresses anti-pride.
While I do not identify with weighted defeatist mentalities or assume a loss of capacity as hopelessness or ungratefulness in any regard, even when aspiring through extreme difficulty, I admittedly struggle with this 'absence of pride', as she calls it. For all of my recognition of Spirit in all, I do not seem to possess or embody a degree of pride Pravrajika Gitaprana suggests that I should. If I am “too quiet“, “too humble“, a bit shy, or reduced into a blush at the reception of a gift, am I not a whole spiritual being? In some ways I cannot help but wish for greater 'I AM THAT'-ness with regard to myself.
How do you all cultivate healthy, inspiring, devotional, insightful, humbling yet empowering pride? How do you experience illusion-less "I AM THAT" with respect and care? How do you embody the difference between possession and spiritual responsibility? The difference between surrender and self-agency? How does one find a balance in what seems to be a beautiful paradox?
Thank you all!
Jai Jai Ma!