Usha Ma's article is resonating on so many levels with me, in these days of quarantine and uncertainty. I find that I continuously hear Maa whispering reminders that She alone is my Source in and of all.
Trusting this... living this... is surrender. It is here, in these times of vulnerability, where my faith in Mother Kali goes beyond lip service and into every cell of my being... and it's so much harder than I thought!
"As a lover of the Hindu Goddess Kali, I have no problem with chaos. I see it as Ma Kali’s divinely intoxicated dance. As the destroyer, Kali clears the path for new creation. Shouting, “Off with the ego!” the great Queen of the Universe clothes Herself in chaos so awesome that our arrogance automatically falls off, giving way to unconditional surrender...
Yet, what seemed so easy a thing to accomplish at first has turned into the hardest task I have ever attempted. Years have passed, and I still don’t know how to completely surrender at Ma Kali’s feet. It’s a vicious cycle. The more I long to surrender, the deeper my understanding gets of what it means to surrender to the Divine. One moment I feel I have done it; the next, I realize how much farther I need to go." -Usha Ma
This is exactly where I find myself, especially "these days", in which the only real task at hand is to find myself! I find that I either run to and cling to Her, or flee into the abyss of the opposite direction... only to find that She is that abyss... and She exists in all directions ;-)
What to do?
So, these are some of my mind-meanderings as I read these articles and review these beautiful study materials (BIG thank you to GuruJi, SwamiJi, Usha Ma, Atma Ram... and everyone else who is making this possible!)
Thank you all for being along the journey. I'd love to hear how these resources are echoing for you personally, given our most unique circumstances.