Jai Ma! I have read of Swami Vivekanananda before but I didn't realize he was such a pragmatic man and that he really questioned religion before meeting Ramakrishna. As Jay Lakhani said in his video, Narendra was practically an atheist. I found this very interesting. I understand that I do not know much about these things.
In my meditations today, I wondered if it is possible for any person to be so absorbed as Ramakrishna was in the presence of God, and to also live in a practical way in the material world. When I meditate and pray, I always ask that God reveal him or herself to me in a real way. I ask to witness God through my own eyes and through my own senses, not just in my mind. It seems as if this is the way Ramakrishna perceived Kali.
I wondered during my meditation if, in some ways, I am afraid to perceive God in some practical form for fear that I would not be able to live any longer in this world or that things would change so much that my life now would feel meaningless. I wondered if I am afraid to have that experience and perhaps this is why God will not be revealed to me.
I find still, that I have a deep desire to know that God is real. To see Kali through my own eyes. And to know that in some way, when I pray to God to know that the connection is getting through.
It seems to me in my readings of Ramakrishna, Neem Karoli Baba, Yogananada and their devotees, that in their days there were miracles happening which could not be denied. So it seems to me that it was easier to believe. When Ramakrishna touched Vivekananda and he perceived everything as one divine consciousness.......Today, we do not have such people, at least in plain sight, so it seems to me it is so much more difficult.
I suppose I do not have a question, just comments. These were just some of the thoughts I've had today while spending the day in meditation and puja and reading....